Anxiety Self Help

DATE: Apr 07 2013, 2:23 am / MOOD: Fearful

Hi! I have been doing so well with my anxiety I still get it but it seems to have subsided a lot over the last month. Well I still haven't found a job. Which isn't so bad I have started an online store on etsy and eBay so maybe that will help financially. I'm having a huge problem right now and I'm so panicked and upset over it I don't know where to turn. I have been in tears off and on for the last 2 days. I have a painful wisdom tooth coming in and the biggest fear of mine is dentists and medication. I know it seems silly to a lot of people but I just can't seem to do anything about this problem. My sister took matters into her own hands and made an appointment for me her and our cousin all on Tuesday afternoon. She promises lots of ice cream afterwards. I know he's going to have to remove it. I am just so (pardon my language) f****** panicked over it I'm in tears and can't sleep. It hurts so bad I can't imagine it getting any worse during recovery. Im so afraid I will be in horrible terrible agony after. I'm terrified some complication will happen and I will die from it! I'm so panicked! In tears right now seriously!

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DATE: Mar 23 2013, 12:10 pm / MOOD: Anxious

Well I made it to my Mema's yesterday and took her to the store. And I went out with my girlfriend to get our nails done and a pedicure as a treat for my birthday. She practically had to drag me. I was nervous the whole time thinking, what if I'm allergic to something they use and I swell up and die? (yes I know my attacks are rediculous) well I didn't have a single problem and have beautiful fingers and toes to prove it. We went out to eat where I was so left over anxious from the salon that I hardly ate.

Came home and my husband had 6 guys over I just wanted to go to sleep cause I had been up since 2 am. but no luck. Most everyone left around 5 am. and I was really angry at my husband for that. And our last guest just left about 20 mins ago so about 11 am. I didn't get much if any sleep and my anxiety is driving me off the wall today. I am not in the best of moods.

ON ANOTHER NOTE I was wondering who else on here has health anxiety? That seems to be the only thing I panic over. Example I have been having this mild headache for a few days. Logic says that is probibly just hormonal and lack of sleep. But there are times during the day where I will think just for an instant what if its a brain tumor causing my headaches and there goes a panic attack. I was wondering who else gets this way of if it's just me?

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DATE: Mar 17 2013, 7:41 am / MOOD: Mellow

I have been trying anything I can to help with my anxiety. I have stopped drinking put my two weeks in at my overnight job so I can see more family friends and sunlight. I have missed sunny days. Put in more resumes today and have a part time job set up till I find my ideal job. With every step I take I feel a little better. I still have attacks everyday but they don't last as long as before and they aren't nearly as intence. I just keep hopeing the things I learn can help someone else on their journey. So a few rules I have learned and would like to pass on.

1) Stand up to your fear. (our imaginations make it all seem worse then it actually is.)

2) Know that the feeling will always pass and just because you had one does not mean you will continue to or always have them.

3) You are not alone

The last one is the hardest...

4) No matter what stay positive

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DATE: Mar 11 2013, 8:47 pm / MOOD: Angry

Today has been a rough one. I keep sleeping only 4 hrs at a time I keep waking up short tempered and panicking. I got a message from my mother in law saying when can I come over and help with side jobs it needs to be soon. It really rubbed me the wrong way because I work overnight get no sleep some days due to my anxiety only get one day off and you want to add more to my plate to worry about?! It doesn't help that every time I go over I feel like she never let's me leave just keeps adding more to do. I feel like I'm going to explode!

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DATE: Mar 09 2013, 10:20 pm / MOOD: Anxious

I made it through work alive last night. As much as my anxiety tried to convince me otherwise. :/ well I have been working overnights for almost 4 years now. And last night I put my two weeks in. I have no idea what I will do next but I just can't take the stress of that job. Hopefully sleeping like a normal person and the change of jobs will pick me up. I'm so nervous about all of this it's rediculous.

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DATE: Mar 08 2013, 5:49 pm / MOOD: Okay

Well here goes another step. I return to work tonight after 3 weeks off on leave. I'm feeling pretty shaky over it. I keep worrying over will they fire me for being out so long and what will I say when everyone asks? Then there's the fact that its the graveyard shift and I have really noticed that it really helps my anxiety if I sleep at night. I just can't sleep during the day. I really can't do it. I've tried sleeping pills and blocking out as much sun as possible but it just doesn't work for me. I have been taking steps the last few weeks to better myself. I haven't touched alcohol in 3 weeks I wrote my résumé put it in at several offices around town and saw several doctors for test to make sure it's just anxiety and no underlying causes. And every test came back normal.

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DATE: Mar 02 2013, 12:20 pm / MOOD: Anxious

Does anyone on here wake up to bad anxiety in the morning? It's not over anyone thing. I have just been waking up hyperventilating shaking and with a stomachache. Does anyone else get this and how do you cope?

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DATE: Mar 01 2013, 11:34 pm / MOOD: Tired

I made it to my blood test yesterday! I treated myself to some time with friends and a new outfit. It was all great besides the fact they missed the vain once and latter in the day my tummy troubles came back. I swear an over anxious tummy is the best and worst diet in the world. Well the results came back today from part of the tests. Looks good so far but my stomach Is still bothering me so I went back in and wouldn't you know it more tests. I get to go for a ct scan on Thursday they gave me some sort of drink I have to drink before. I'm worried all over again but I'm so tired of this tummy ache. She gave me some ant acids too but with my fear of medication. I just can't get myself to take it. I seem to always get some type of reaction to every medication. Seems like I'm taking one step forward and two steps back.

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DATE: Feb 27 2013, 3:10 pm / MOOD: Lonely

I have been feeling so down today. I was supposed to go get my blood drawn today. But I woke up with a panic attack about it. And gave up. I feel like I failed. I have been home alone for 2 weeks. I can talk to my husband when he's awake but as we are on different sleep schedules it's hard. I feel so down and out today. I hope this doom and gloom feeling passes soon.

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DATE: Feb 25 2013, 4:20 pm / MOOD: Don't know

Well the last week has been a horrible mess. I actually did seek out help though. Finally. The celexa didn't work out though. Started hallucinating. And wound up in the er where they told me there was nothing they could do it had to come out on its own. Been on leave from work since the 15th when all of this started. I'm just feeling pretty down today. Worried about things. But no where near panic. I also have lost 12 lbs since the 15th so that's really worrying me. I've been trying to eat every few hours. I keep hoping the weight loss isn't due to anything serious.

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