Anxiety Self Help

DATE: Feb 17 2011, 12:55 am / MOOD: Other

Bible verses that speak to me tonight and in the past week..but I thought I'd share...It's been rough but it didn't have to be...

Jesus said to him, “Again it is written, ‘You shall not put the Lord your God to the test.’”

Matthew 4:7

“But concerning that day and hour no one knows, not even the angels of heaven, nor the Son, but the Father only.

Matthew 24:36

Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world. - 1 John 4:4

Will you not revive us again, that your people may rejoice in

you?

-- Psalm 85:6

Do not be deceived: “Bad company ruins good morals.”

1 Corinthians 15:33

Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.

1 Peter 5:8

No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it

1 Corinthians 10:13

Let no one despise you for your youth, but set the believers an example in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, in purity.

1 Timothy 4:12

1 Corinthians 13:4-6

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

now studying Jesus' temptation in the Wilderness....

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DATE: Feb 13 2011, 5:51 am / MOOD: Tired

Praise You in This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms

I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

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DATE: Feb 11 2011, 2:32 pm / MOOD: Don't know

So far today is pretty peaceful. I always believe God lets things happen for a reason. Like this site, I've found a lot of inspiration and motivation from you all. You're all angels.

So, yesterday was crazy. A bank near me was held hostage and it didn't end well. I had so many mixed emotions. I watched, as so many did, in suspence as some hostages were set free. The nogotiater tried again to get the gunman to cooperate. The gunman, however, didn't have such a happy ending. i felt for all of them really. What caused him to choose that path? What was his childhood like or his story?

This morning, more bullying from mom going to the grocery store. I stopped at a local Italian pizza shop my friend worked at. She wasn't there so I just ordered to go. I felt peaceful there and saw that a waitress looked familiar. Did I know her from school? I don't know. She was sweet. I sat in a bar chair next to a police officer. He was cool, laid back. He was talking about the hostage situation and his buddy in the SBI.

I began thinking about their mental health. Then I found out more psychologists are there for officers to talk to after traumatic events. It reminded me that we're all human and we all have our limits. I went to get my drink, glanced at my mom's car out there and thought about applying for a job there. I think I'd like that. but first, I gotta go to the DMV again *shudders* time to renew...ughhh

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DATE: Feb 07 2011, 1:30 am / MOOD: Tired

I was watching True Life: I have Autism (I like this show there's a I Have Anxiety/ I panic too I'm watching now) and these two guys truley inspired me. I wanted to share it.

One wants to be a comedian, one an artist and the other just wanted a birthday party and his friends to show up. They went through so many struggles to make these things happen. I was really inspired by a 19 year old boy who turned his autism into something positive. One of his jokes was "I have autism....well, at least that's what my parents say..." he let nothing bring him down even though he went through so much to get there.

 

Another boy, around 19, had an art show. He has "anger tantrums" he can't control. The closer he came to his art show, the worst they got. He went to his neurologist and had a severe tantrum and got so frustrated beyond belief. He was terrified he would have an attack at the show. The day of the show, he saw people coming and was so excited he hugged them (even strangers) for the longest time. He said it was the best day ever and he didn't have one attack the whole time.

 

I had a horrible day today. All stress and anxiety. Nothing could make me smile but watching these guys made me really smile.

What I learned: don't think so much or try too hard. I tend to be a negative thinker at times. I need to face my fears more and leave it in God's hands. Just go with it because the outcome could be great. I guess what counts is that we try.

If you'd like to check it out here's the link: http://www.mtv.com/shows/truelife/episode.jhtml?episodeID=115351

The panic episode is also on the site. I like how they show a full panic attack (even though is awful) because it educates people who don't usually see this or understand it. It's also motivating to see people overcome these things.

I'm also inspired by war veterens (especially right now). Every man on my dad's side is one except for my half brother. I live near two bases so I'm around a few. Also a lot of heartbreak so I love talking to them or saying hi when I bump into them. Now, I'm keeping pictures on my wall of some of my "earth heroes" to help motivate me when it gets darkest.

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DATE: Jan 31 2011, 11:05 pm / MOOD: Don't know

I wanted to share my story, maybe some of you can offer some more insight. This just recently hit me. I'm 24 years old and until now, I thought everything was alright and "normal". Bear with me here.

My mother suffered from psychosis when I was a toddler. It was a nightmare. There was a lot of abuse. Her psychologist suggested ECT (electric shock therapy) which usually has ok results. It seemed to change her. The only problem is, she became child like so my sister and I didn't get much of a childhood.
At age 8 or 9, my sister and I were in the recovery psych unit of the hospital before and after school waiting for her. After a while it became too overwhelming and I began self harming and all that. I quit (haven't done that in three years). Sad part is I moved on to drugs.

Then, I accepted Christ who has saved me in many situations. My only problem is I began accepting the negativity because they convinced me it was alright. I love my sister and when she got married, reality hit. Everyone was moving on but me and I didn't know why until I realized my mom is getting bad again and using me.
Helping people has been my outlet but I forgot to help myself...

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DATE: Jan 30 2011, 4:32 pm / MOOD: Tired

...it wasn't so bad. Thank you everyone who commented on my last two dramatic blogs lol. The comments help :) Thanks for thinking of me <3

The ride there was full of dread but I'm thankful it's only about 8 minutes and I know the area. I had my ipod up and just kept praying in my head. When we got there I was surprised at how small it was. I still felt anxious but started to mellow out after checking in and all the paperwork (new dentist). When the dental assistant called be back I was relieved because she was around my age and seemed nice. When I sat down, before the x rays I told her about my anxiety. how I was afraid my throat would get irritated or I might panic and "choke". She listened to me and talked me through it. I have a smaller mouth so the x rays don't fit right in my mouth but she made it easier.

Then the dentist came in to examine my teeth. He had nice voice and was very professional. He actually looked at every single tooth. I've never been in there so long lol. It wasn't bad at all! They really do understand anxiety and it was all just dread. I'm going back in a week to get a tooth fixed but I'm not worried anymore. I'm glad I didn't punk out again =] So in the end, I'm glad I did it.

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DATE: Jan 28 2011, 12:28 am / MOOD: Don't know

Some quotes I came across that made me think:

They can because they think they can.
Virgil

I am the greatest!
Muhammad Ali

Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude.
Thomas Jefferson

Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall.
Confucius

The harder you work, the harder it is to surrender.
Vince Lombardi

Whether you think you can or think you can't, you are right.
Henry Ford

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DATE: Jan 27 2011, 9:54 pm / MOOD: Fearful

I have to go to the dentist tomorrow. It might seem silly but I have a huge fear of going. Mostly because I don't know them, the lectures and well...I haven't been in a couple of years. I've put off so many appointments and finally kept myself motivated until today. It's 11 pm and I'm in "dread mode". I know I have to wake up and go.

Dread makes a night seem like forever. I feel awful and everything seems dark. Trying to figure out if this is panic or just my anxiety....

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DATE: Jan 26 2011, 4:55 pm / MOOD: Sad

Hold On Good Charlotte (helped me a lot and still does..)

This world, this world is cold
But you don’t, you don’t have to go
You’re feeling sad you’re feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
You’re mother’s gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bare

But we all bleed the same way as you do
We all have the same things to go thru

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know

Your days you say they’re way too long
And your nights you can’t sleep at all (hold on)
And you’re not sure what you’re looking for
But you don’t want to no more
And you’re not sure what you’re waiting for but you don’t want to no more

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know

Don’t stop looking you’re one step closer
Don’t stop searching it’s not over...hold on

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DATE: Jan 13 2011, 11:51 pm / MOOD: Other

I have PTSD from being abused at a mental hospital at 16. I'm not a minor anymore but it still haunts me. I'm still looking for peace of mind from it and some other perspectives. sometimes the memories come back.

Can a psychiatrist force you into a mental hospital? I tend to walk on eggshells around anyone in the mental health care system

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