Anxiety

The Subways, Funeral for a Friend, Flyleaf, Porcelain and the Tramps, The Kooks, The Used, Hinder, The Ting Tings, Fightstar, Kelly Clarkson. 'Guitar music' is my favourite type, though I also like pop and some r'n'b

Harry Potter series, His Dark Materials trilogy, To Kill a Mockingbird, Animal Farm, I'm the King of the Castle, Demonata series, Saga of Darren Shan etc

My name is Debbie, I'm 18 years old, and have had Depression since I was 14. I dropped out of school at 14 due to my Social Anxiety Disorder.
I am very very frightened in public and communicating with people is extremely hard. It often makes me feel very lonely. I have been shy my entire life. Most of my time is spent indoors alone, and I have been trapped in my home for 4 years. When I was 14 I thought a lot about suicide and I self-harmed. I was too frightened to leave the house. I dreamed of changing my appearance - all I wanted was to be pretty, as at school I was bullied for being 'ugly' everyday.
Now I go out shopping with my parents at least two or three times a week, but I still obsess about my appearance. Pleasing people is a must. I rarely see old friends, and I have no way of making new friends thanks to my phobia. I am unable to pay for things or order food, and I wouldn't be able to walk to the shops by myself. Although I've always been of very small frame, my appetite is low and I see food as a boring chore. I collapsed just before my 18th birthday in the bath because I was underweight and my body couldn't handle the heat.
I am in a relationship with a man I'm madly in love with, but my need for female friends is strong, and being so severely afraid of people is soul shattering. Much of the time I wish I had finished school and gone to college. Everyday feels empty and pointless, hopeless and unimportant.

I like writing to people, I have lots of penpals who I love, although I have none with Depression like me. I am a Hello Kitty/Sanrio obsessive, and I love Kawaii and Japanese culture. I'm hoping to study for a career as a Nail Technician by doing a distance learning course in the near future. I am a big dog-lover and own a gorgeous 18-month-old pomeranien jack russel cross that looks like a beautiful fox.
I am fragile and over-sensitive, friendly and sweet. Underneathe the shadow inside me I'm your average teenage girl.

Rock and pop music, Hello Kitty/Sanrio, Kawaii, Dogs, Shopping, Clothes, Creativity, Individuality, Girlie things

Insensitive people, heartless people, vain people, shallow people. Spiders

Penpalling, creative writing, reading (mostly fiction books), designing clothes, personalizing