Anxiety Self Help

- Good comedy CGI films.
- War movies (especially if they depict war as the Hell it is and makes us happy we're only watching a movie and not participating in the depicted war)
- Sci-fi movies.
- Space Operas (unless they're overly cheesy).
- Fantasy movies - that is a few of them.
- Occasional drama movie.
- Occasional Crime mystery movie.

I don't focus much on genres, because I can like a music piece from a certain band, but absolutely detest another music piece from the same band despite similarities. I focus on individual songs instead.
A few bands/musicians I'm known to be into:

- VNV Nation
- Rammstein
- Frank Klepacki
- Hocico
- Tristesse de la Lune
- Winterstahl

I also like some classical music, notably music from Tchaikowsky's Nutcracker.

I'm a sucker for a good story :P

Currently, I'm all about a sci-fi trilogy called The Foundation Trilogy by Isaac Asimov, but in broad terms, these are the genres I generally take an interest in:

- Sci-fi novels.
- Fantasy novels.
- Crime mystery novels.
- Novels about war.
- Litterature about animal life.
- Litterature about psycholocal disorders.
- History books.

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Hey everyone.

I'm a Danish/English youngster born and raised in the State of Denmark. (And getting the rather palpatable feeling that there's indeed something rotten in the State of Denmark).

I've recently got reason to think I may have been born with psychological problems. As a young child, certain mundane things could send me flying into a panic (that the other children my age did not have a problem with) and I still do not know the reason for these outbursts in my early life (a few are around still in the form of fully developed phobias).

Now I'm diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder and something that looks a lot like Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, but isn't "real PTSD" - whatever that means. I have a few other specific phobias as well.

Nowadays I manage to get by. I work as a caretaker/home help(?), which has made me a lot better at opening up and talking to other people in recent years.
I love my job, because it provides free excercise, often involves pleasant social contact with people who have grown accustomed to requiring help from others; such people are usually a lot more considerate and friendly than others.
Unfortunately, it is not a very well-paid job and I have received considerable pressure from other people to get myself a more prestigeous job. I have decided that I will get myself a new job only when *I* feel like it. Period.

I've had great success with Cognitive Behavioural Therapy and some varied levels of success seeing a psychologist, but I keep getting bogged down by mood swings and lousy memories that won't go away.

I always try to remind myself that there are people out there who have it a lot worse than myself, so I adhere to the philosophy of "being grateful for small mercies" :)

Still, everyone needs to vent now and again and venting my problems/displeasure is my secondary objective here on AT (the primary being to offer support where I can).

I generally prefer to have relatively few friends, but to get to know these well enough to understand each of them. Mutual understanding is the key to a good relationship.

- A good, meaningful and especially intelligent conversation.
- People who actually make an effort to not judge you negatively, unless you actually deserved it, by acting unfairly towards them.
- Openmindedness.
- Close friends.
- Dislodging myself from the real world and diving into the Realm of Imagination.
- Diving into my artwork and producing something of high quality.
- Experiencing being able to make someone happy, especially if I made someone happy by telling the person how awesome he/she really is.
- Receiving a genuine smile from someone nice.
- Being accepted for who I am.
- Successful accomplishments.
- Seeing people brave enough to believe/think something else than the rest of society.
- Seeing people learn from past mistakes and retroactively accepting responsibility for said mistakes.
- The colour black, but preferably combined with brighter colours. Red or bright green usually goes well with black in my opinion.
- The colour green, preferably grass green.
- Listening to different dialects/versions of the English language and try to figure out what makes them distinct.
- Getting new insight through talking to someone intelligent and/or with experience.

- Discussions, unless friendly.
- Racism
- People with the inability to act in accordance with moral and ethical standards.
- People with a high self-esteem, who do not really match up to their own, self-perceived high standards.
- Panic attacks.
- Seeing nice people hurt.
- Seeing jerks become successful.
- Psychopaths/Sociopaths, that is people who litterally have no conscience (I'd put that one under "hates with super-human passion", except there's no such a field, so I'll just stick it here).
- Irresponsible behaviour resulted from simple thoughtlessness or oversized self-esteem.
- Re-experiencing unpleasant past experiences and anything that triggers said re-experiences.
- Men and women who consider the opposite sex inferior/sex objects.
- Watching people wasting their lives constantly competing with everyone about getting the biggest house, the best job, the most expensive car etc. rather than spend that effort being a good friend and family member.
- The colour grey. Plain white too if not backed up by something more colourful.
- Getting overwhelmed by a powerful feeling of envy I know to be wrong, and the ensuing self-hate and guilt.
- Realizing (or strongly suspecting) I undeservedly hurt someone else needlessly.
- Opinionated, stubborn people whose arguments are worthless, yet they refuse to accept the possibility that they *could* be wrong, while failing to see that they're derailing a good conversation with their selfishness.
- Getting laughed at.
- People who try to "show" that they like me by teasing me, or making other comments that indicate they are not taking me serious, or otherwise putting me in a position that makes people laugh at me.

- 3d modelling/animation.
- Pencil art.
- Occasional jogging and other physical excercise.
- Computer games (though it's becoming a rare thing).
- Internet chatting.
- Listening to music composed by friends and telling said friends how awesome their music is.
Here's what I've accomplished in 3d so far:



"The Sick Skull" was my graduation project at the animation course I attended back in 2004/2005. I wanted to do something that felt a bit like an advertisement, while carrying a humourous, but useful message. Took me about 3 months to do.

The next video, I had to split up into two seperate video files:


Part 1



And Part 2
This is the first animation project I did in my free time, independently of the animation course I attended. I had just learned how to animate humanoid characters and I was eager to put that to use. So eager in fact, that I neglected to carefully plan the animation and I think it shows in the final product. I also wasted a lot of time in the end, because I had to redo parts that I wouldn't have had to do had I planned it better. Nonetheless, the animation turned out relatively entertaining.
It came about in this way: during the animation course, we had a two-week project in which the subject was chess. I was inspired by a classic dos game called Battle Chess, in which the chess pieces are animated, live characters that actively fight each other. I decided to do something similar, sadly, I didn't have time to do it the justice I wanted, and the disappointment lingered. Eventually, I decided to do a much longer, more gratifying sci-fi version of the same project in my free time and here it is. Only took 1 and a half year to make...




"The Villain" is my latest completed animation project. I wanted to do something cartoonish and humourous for a change, although I think the colours and the lighting made it look a lot less cartoonish than what I aimed at. I guess I'm a little too attracted to dark colours and dark lighting.



This is a test animation of a Dwarven Blacksmith plying his trade. This animation I plan to use as part of a much greater project about Dwarves going about their lives in their mountain fortress (although the animation will no doubt undergo further revision before hitting final).