Jan 19 2011, 1:31 am / Disappointed
I never should have quit going to the gym here. I should have kept going, swiming my laps and trying to maintain a more healthy diet. If I would have, perhaps I wouldn't have the fears about my health that I have right now. I wouldn't be up every night till 8 A.M. trying to convince myself that I'm really ok.
IF I had never met a certain girl, maybe I wouldn't have been so distracted and I would have stayed the course. MAybe I shouldn't blame my quitting on her, perhaps I would have quit even without her around. I don't know, I can't know. All I know is I'm tired of feeling so scared of my health, and being unhealthy... I need to do something about it soon.