Anxiety
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I dont understand.. i dont get it
DATE: Dec 02 2008, 5:56 pm / MOOD: Sad
I have been fine with less anxiety since my session and then all a sudden last night i felt so empty and weird and i dont know how to explain it. didnt feel like myself.. and i went to a movie with a friend had a good time went to the gym did the usual things i forced myself even though i felt like i didnt want to do anything.. so i wa sup til 5 am last night crying and i dotn know why or what is wrong with me.. and today i felt the same empty feeling and i still went out with my mom and stuff and forced myself to do things but nothing is helping. i called my boyfriend to hangout and he said something pretty rude and that set me off and im crying and depressed again. i dont understand why i am like this i cant find a reason its just so fusterating because i do not want to feel this way... View Entry | Leave A Comment
Is this a good idea
DATE: Dec 02 2008, 4:20 pm / MOOD: Other
So i am thinking about volonterring or however you spell it haha, at a SPCA because i love animals and i hear that it is good for anxiety! View Entry | Leave A Comment
WTF does anyone else have this
DATE: Nov 27 2008, 2:35 pm / MOOD: Other
Ok it seems like whenever something fun im excited about is coming up like a party or something with my friends a couple days before i start feeling sick like not anxiety sick maybe flu sick .. that has happened ot me so many times i dont know if its my anxiety playin tricks on me but th efeeling wont go away no matter how much medicine i take until after the party or i missed it. View Entry | Leave A Comment
Could this be real
DATE: Nov 17 2008, 3:00 pm / MOOD: Other
I finished my second and last appointment.. and i feel amazing like i feel like i use to feel when i didnt have anxiety. i have been feeing so normal and good since last wednesdays appointment and today made it even better.. i didnt think this would ever go away.. but it seems to be gone. for now. i hope it stays this way. i am so happy for the week ive had no anxiety at all though! View Entry | Leave A Comment
I was DUMPED..
DATE: Nov 10 2008, 9:57 am / MOOD: Other
i was dumped of my long term bf and it was my fault. i messed up big time. I dont know where to start i just know i am in for a long nights of crying and depression... View Entry | Leave A Comment
This is not how i pictured my life.
DATE: Jul 30 2008, 7:05 pm / MOOD: Sad
This is not how i pictured my life. If i have to deal with this for any longer i dont know what i will do. This is not something i want to have forever and it seems like most people have had this for their whole lives.And that scares me. I pretend to be happy, on this chat i act all happy but i am not. I know it could be worse but right now life is passing me by, and its as if every day im on autopilot. I feel alone when i have people around me. I cry almost every night. I am so behind in school an it feels impossible to catch up. I dont have my L. I am so behind in life. I dont know if il ever be able to have a job. Yes, i am only 17 but life is passing by and before i know it i will need to be independant. I do not want to be 40 and living with my parents. Ive been doing all i can to get better and to feel better but i am getting sick of trying. If i am like this after only having this for a year and a half then what will i be like when im older with more responsibilities. I dont know if i can make it.All i do is worry and i dont know how to stop. I think people with anxiety disorders are strong people & most people without it do not realise how hard it is and serious it is. Some people just dont get it and never will. They think it is a little thing and nothing to be worryign about they think its so simple to get rid of, ''just stop worrying!'' they say but its not that easy. Well thats whats on my mind.. View Entry | Leave A Comment
A poem i wrote about anxiety
DATE: Jul 07 2008, 8:14 pm / MOOD: Mellow
One day everything changed Feelings so intense like knives in my heart Choking,shaking I'm going to die i can't breathe, gasping for air Soon it passed but it seemed like forever I thought When i awoke i hoped it was a dream, i feel sick to my stomache, I want to scream I try to relax i try to sleep, but fear I turn on the tv,so disconnected I can't even see Fear has taken over me like a disease it spreads from my sweaty palms up into my sleeves, up to my racing heart,then to my brain But some days once in a while I can feel myself starting to smile. Dejavu of the old me,It feels just like before These days are an inportant part they help remind me im not back to the start, Ive made it far i can put the past behind me. Then positive thoughts seem to find me so what if no one understands, its okay. you have to get through the dark to see the sun shine it all will get better in time. &when i feel the warmth pouring down on me my life will be mine. Once again View Entry | Leave A Comment
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