Anxiety Self Help

DATE: Oct 17 2011, 1:30 am / MOOD: Content

Hey everyone. I just want to go on record and say "Don't try to please anyone." I know a big part of the reason why I have anxiety is because I tried so hard to please people. In my case, I sucked at it! Whenever I have tried, I'm the one who got screwed in the end. I've done everything that I was supposed to do, just not the way that people wanted me to do it. I will give you a few examples of what I'm talking about.

I completed grade levels kindergarden through 12th grade, check...but I was unmotivated from 7th grade and up..to which my mom still reminds me about to this day. I got my high school diploma, check..But, I didn't receive a scholarship. I completed college with a degree, check..But I didn't get an internship. I had friends, check..but alot of them haven't stuck because I'm not the most popular or richest..etc..etc.. I think you get the point.

I'm learning to not care about what people think about me, and not being a people pleaser. Besides..if they see that you ae confident in who you are, they have no choice but to respect it anyways. Okay, some might read this and say why haven't I outgrown that phase yet...however, those who say that may be the very ones still trying to please others themselves..and aren't aware of it. "Just do you!" When I say this, I don't mean be an a-hole about things...Just gracefully, try and prove something to yourself and not to others. As long as it makes you happy inside, that's all that matters. Also, do the right things for the right reasons. Don't let attention seeking be a prime motivator in your life. I know too many who are like this.

Don't let peers or family dictate who or what you are. Show the world who you really are personality-wise. Don't care about if they won't accept you because you're too this or not enough that. If they won't accept you for who you really are inside, then screw them!

I am not writing this blog to gain attention..I'm just trying to encourage who ever this blog touches deeply. I'm sorry to drone on like this, but tonight I had an epiphany and felt that I needed to get this out. Show the world who you really are and shine! Remember..that everyone is unique and they (people who we perceive as better than us) are no better than us. We can do or have anything they have and more! We just have to believe in ourselves. Also, if you do this, you will only gain confidence in yourself. The key words are "confidence in yourself." Pursue your goals and dreams without hesitation. Plan first, and then follow through..one step at a time. Don't let anyone tell you when or how you should go about achieving those goals. You know what's best for you, and that's all that matters. Take care everyone and be you, always.

-G

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DATE: Aug 26 2011, 9:45 pm / MOOD: Mellow

Well..summer is almost just about over with...There are still some hot days left, like how today was. Lol This way to stay cool at your crib is real simple. All you have to do is soak your shirt in cold water. Squeeze the excess water out and put the shirt on. You will have a shock to the system real quick because of the extreme change in temperature to the body, but it's worth it! Buy a fan, they don't really cost that much. With an AC unit, you might run up your electric bill alot more and faster than you would a fan. Have that sucker blowing in your face with the soaked T-shirt on.

For an added and longer lasting coolness affect...you can soak the T-shirt in cold water, and then put it in the Freezer for 20 minutes...take it out just moments before the water in the T-shirt becomes ice. Try it!..this technique may seem tackless, but it works..and is economy friendly! In this economy, you have to do what you gotta do. As for the harsh winter..just try wearing heavier and multi-layered clothes around the house..enough to where you are not too hot or too cold in it. As for sleeping at night..I like the coziness that the winter brings..myself. Try sleeping with a heavy and thick pajamas and extra layers of bed sheets and blankets. Done and Done! Winter and Summer problems solved!

-G

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DATE: Jul 23 2011, 7:47 pm / MOOD: Anxious

I took a cat nap during the day and had a dream. I had an anxiety attack in my dream. I felt it. I felt the anxiety while I was having the dream! Wow! I have dreams that give me anxiety, but I never remembered experiencing anxiety within the dream before. I usually don't feel the anxiety until after the dream is over. This is crazy! I even recognize the situation in the dream that I would be in in real life that would give me the anxiety. I would probably have anxiety at that particular point too. It was right on point in the dream. How crazy is that? Well..I'm fine now...

  

Other than that, I have been having trouble sleeping for the past few days anyway...Have you? I attributed it to the out of control weather as of late (the super humid heat). Concerning that..I will do another blog about how to stay cool if you are without a good air conditioner...But let me warn you..it's very unorthodox and it might seem weird, but it has worked for me and will save you some money. You'll see what I'm talking about when I post it. Keep an eye out for that one.

 

-G

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DATE: Jun 11 2011, 2:01 am / MOOD: Lonely

I've realized that I cannot build upon any relationships in the real world now. I can meet new people with ease, but my insecurities and trust issues in others, causes the inability for me to build on any friendships and maintaining it. I cannot compare myself to anybody. We all have trust issues, but I think mine is particular. I also think that, when a relationship or friendship goes bad,I prove myself right by subconsciously sabotaging it. Somehow I have desensitized myself to alot of things because I'm trying to protect myself (mostly from disappointment). I don't think that this behavior is healthy or normal.

 

-G

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DATE: Nov 07 2010, 5:47 am / MOOD: Curious

 I don't want to create a religious uproar with people here concerning what I am about to say.....I just have a legitimate and innocent curiousity on the matter. I just want to make that clear to everyone concerned before you read this any further. My intentions is not to be offensive to God, anybody with religious beliefs, sexual orientations or hermaphrodites. Also, I don't expect to get a correct answer (if even possible) from anybody...just your opinions on the matter.

 

I've always been told since my youth that God never makes mistakes, and honestly I believe that too, but still alot of things doesn't make sense to me...So my question is; If God never makes mistakes, then what was the point of creating Hermaphrodites and or Transgenders (I'm not very educated on the subject, I'm not sure what the difference is) and have them being born. All I know is....they have both the male and female genitilia. If bisexuality is an abomination and is wrong i.e. (Soddom and Gamorah) referenced in the bible than so should be hermaphrodites/ transgenders right? But it's nobodys fault in how and what they were born with. That is something that is out of their control... So what does this mean..that they are doomed from birth? If that's true (not saying it is, I don't know anyways) then how is that fair. God is supposed to be a fair God right? So is it possible that God does makes mistakes...or could it be that this is part of God's plan and is intended for a reason? What do you think?

 

 

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DATE: Nov 03 2010, 2:44 am / MOOD: Lonely

 This is probably the most weirdest of all my moods that I can get into. Does anyone ever get into that mental state where you feel like you're seperate from human society, or you feel like your mind has left Earth. Creepy huh? I also think of the most strangest and disturbing things when I get like this. Also, I dissociate myself from the world because I don't want anyone to pick up on my strange vibe. I'll even stay away from chat. I especially hate it when people are happy and I'm in the gutter so to speak, so I just stay away all together because it makes me feel even more miserable. I get over it eventually, but when I'm in it, it brings back bad memories of awkward times in my life in the past that makes me insecure and feel like I never left them. Like a black cloud over my head, almost. Anybody feel this way sometimes?

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