Anxiety Self Help

so the thing with Curtis is just getting. . worse. .   i keep asking myself. . is HE worth this much trouble? my heart says yes, don't give up on this one. . . while my brain keeps yelling, don't be stupid you're only going to get hurt!   or maybe its the other way around. . . ? blah  

on a possitive note, I'm sooo in the Christmas spirit this year. .  i don't know why. .. i'm just so excited about sharing Christmas with everyone I love.  .. i love to love. hehe. . and give. . .and getting is a plus too. ;-) 

but yet, i still wake up feeling very depressed. .. .  i'm soo moody lately. blah