It is what it is.
ConfuzedHeart Female
32 years old
Lynnwood, Washington
United States

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Job: Self employed
Smoke: No
Drink: Socially
Religion: Christian
Orientation: Straight
Dating status: Hurt
MEMBER SINCE: Dec 11 2012, 4:32 am
LAST LOGIN: Feb 18 2013, 12:54 am

Braveheart... the hero dies, it was wow... just struck me. Fell in love at first watch.
Patch Adams- makes me laugh, makes me cry.
Edward Scissorhands- outsider with a soft heart just trying to help but screws things up... yeah I get it.

Anything EXCEPT country thank you ;)

5 love languages (if I didnt believe in God, that book would be my Bible!!)

Feb 18 2013, 1:01 am
Feb 02 2013, 4:32 am
Jan 05 2013, 2:10 am
Jan 01 2013, 5:36 am

Someone who is finally admitting her problems... kindof. I'm pretty embarrassed to be in the place I'm at emotionally. I never thought I'd be seeking for help or refuge- I was always the one helping or providing refuge.

I'm pretty alone these days tho. I spend alot of time by myself and not all by choice. I constantly try to see friends, but they don't have the time these days. I constantly am getting numbers to new people, but they don't respond to my texts. So I'm feeling pretty lost and for the 2nd time am dealing with depression but in a harder way than before.
To make it worse, the few friends I have I'm probably chasing away cuz I worry about everything now... I've lost my smiles and energy and don't know how to get it back.
I grew up fast, had to take care of myself since age 14, but at 29 I'm now depending on others... emotionally. I'm not used to this and I for the first time since I was suicidal at 16, hate myself. I hate seeing what I've become and I dont know how to fix it...

(after sharing a piece of my life thru a Kelly Clarkson song I figure I should add that most of the songs on the "breakaway" album I can relate to, some part of the song, some all of the song. That album is the bio of my life... if you need to understand me.)

Simply Mango Orange Juice
Water- plenty to drink, to swim, to relax next too!!!

Mushroooms- eww fungus! ;)

Re-learning.. I lost myself and am finally seeking healing and figure finding myself will follow.

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Dec 22 2012, 10:31 am
Just wanted to wish you and your family a very Merry Christmas.


Dec 17 2012, 8:46 pm
Wanted to say I hope your day was good, and things are looking up :) Anytime you need to vent I am an open ear:)


Dec 15 2012, 5:51 am
My email said I got 2 comments... but theres nothing. Boo :( Thus be life I suppose.
I'm ubber tired. I'm always tired. My brain doesn't shut off and so I'm always awake to long and dont sleep well when I do. I work early and off and on thru out the day so I don't always have time to sleep... I'm so so tired. Well, I also want to cry often but find myself eating so I don't cry. I don't know how to deal with my emotions sometimes. Sigh sigh. I should learn to cry.