Anxiety

First, I want to thank those for their words of incouragement and support.

Yes, I do believe in God.  I tell you, if it wasn't for my faith in Him, I don't think I would be here right now.

One of the reasons I did go into a mental facility at the end of Aug. of this year was because I was having suicial thoughts, and I didn't want to go out like that.  I didn't want to give the enemy that final victory over me like that.

Mental illness runs in my family and that bothers me a lot.  My father has been mentally disabled since I was 8 yrs old, and since I have been 27, he has lived with me.  I am his primary care giver.  My younger sister was mentally ill, and we lost her on Nov. 28, 2006 from pain pills and alcohol.

My life has been something straight out of the twilight zone, and what scares me is that there are others out there that has had it even worse then I have.  It just seems like everything in my life is going wrong right now and I can't seem to get it back on track.  It's like I have no control over anything right now.

I would like to at least leave my house without having to drug myself up just to do so.  But I will keep trying everyday.  I won't give up on myself.

Thanks to everyone again for all of your support and prayers. I really appreciate that.  And thank you for letting me share with all of you.

My Comments From: Liquidsun Dec 28 2007, 7:35 am You're right! One minute at a time. Recognizing that you are powerless is a good thing! That way you don't drive yourself crazy trying to control what you Can't! Focus on the things you do have power/control over and do the best you can because that's all you can do! Stay on the right path and keep your faith in the Lord. The Devil's just trying to temp you...lead you astray. "Be Not Affraid! I Go Before You ALWAYS!"...I like this scripture! I also like the Footprints in the sand poem. Always seems to help when I'm going through a rough time. Remember, nothing lasts forever and everyhting happends for a reason. I believe that my suffering sometimes might benefit someone else. You never know who you might be helping through your pain. I offer mine up sometimes for others. I hope everything gets better for you! I will keep you in my prayers!