AvaRose             
 


Dec 04 2008, 10:18 am / Anxious

I hate myself right now..I'm not taking care of myself very well,


I'm an emotional wreck, i can barely eat or sleep, i cant be a


good mom or friend, i'm pushing people away that i deeply


care for :(  No one could ever really understand me i have


no support, i feel empty, alone, scared, judged, i hate these


feelings..please make them go away, i'm having a hard time


and it hurts, the pain is still so fresh in my mind and no one


gets it, and i'm sorry for the people that i have hurt in the past!



My Comments

From: Tat2ed
Dec 27 2008, 10:27 am
Just remember that we do care for you, and we love you

Tat2ed


From: mg08
Dec 05 2008, 8:12 pm

Hello, do you know you just put down everything  I am feeling.  On top of all that I am having severe palpatations and I have had a cough that has lasted six weeks now.  I want to stay in bed and cover the blanket over my head and shut everything out. But how could I do that to my kids.  i know they are worried about me. You are definetly not alone. 



mg08


Dec 05 2008, 10:04 am

I too have felt this way many times. Here are a few verses that may help you know that you are not worthless.




 


Matthew 11:28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. (Give your burdens to God and he will give you rest)




 


2 Timothy 1:7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love and of a sound mind. (I repeat this to myself often)




 


Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.




 


Joshua 1:9 Have not I commanded thee? Be strongh and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.




 


1 Thessalonians 3:7 Therefore brethen, we were comforted over you in all our affliction and distress by your faith.




 


Psalms 30:5 For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.




 


Luke 1:37 FOR WITH GOD NOTHING SHALL BE IMPOSSIBLE!




 


John 14:27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.




 


Matthew 7:7 Ask and it shall be given you; seek and ye shall find; knock and it shall be opened unto you.




 


These are just a few I use to help myself get through the day. God bless!



cfisher24


Dec 04 2008, 8:48 pm

Hi Ava, I'm sorry your feeling this way.  I have very little support at home with my anxiety, in fact we live in seperate parts of the house.  I used to get upset about it, but now I just go with the flow hoping and praying I will get so relief so I can have my freedom back.  I really hope you start feeling better.


Big Hugs, Eric



wallanec


Dec 04 2008, 11:42 am

You really have to start caring for yourself before you will be able to care for others. I know it's a hard thing to do, because I once hated myself as well-until my daughter came along and I started to see myself through HER eyes...


"A mother is GOD in the eyes of a child"  Silent Hill


Once you begin to see how worthy of love you are, because that's the way your child sees you, it'll become easier to love yourself as much as they love you. Hang in there, because as horrible as it seems, these feelings are only temporary. Feel free to write me anytime. And take care of yourself because there's only one you.


 


Sincerely, Rachel



SorrowSmiles


From: JVP
Dec 04 2008, 11:33 am

Sorry to hear of your pain. But pain is human. I carry my own insane burden of pain,too,but I'm learning to disidentify from it. It doesn't mean that you don't face it. Actually,you embrace it. But remember,your pain is not who you are. I believe this. Try reading some Eckhart Tolle.That's where I heard about this stuff. You might be annoyed reading some of it,(I was,and still get that way sometimes) but the info is there. And you pick up on it as you live your life.Not all at once.



JVP


Dec 04 2008, 11:00 am

I wish you would talk to me.


please talk to me!



Ravenzthirdeye


Dec 04 2008, 10:52 am

(((HUGS)))


I'm sorry you're having a rough time. It really does suck. I hope things look up soon, you deserve it. Don't go around beating yourself up for whatever it may be. Just focus on making whatever the problem is better...


 


:) XOX



LindsyPants


From: lisaf
Dec 04 2008, 10:26 am

hope u feel better soon , sorry  how ur feeling x



lisaf


From: lisaf
Dec 04 2008, 10:26 am

same place as u are right now ava :(



lisaf