Anxiety

everybody i know is either getting drugged or drunk and i dont know how to deal with it.im already being cut out of one group of friends because i cant trust them.not to push me to self neglect/destruct myself.this is for their gain and for reasons i cant face.because if i slip down that road again i may end up dead or worse,alive and wishing i was dead.i can only trust a couple of people and sadly this doesnt include me;.ive not been this worried for a couple of years but this year has been a tough one.