Anxiety

Empire Records, A Walk to Remember, The Notebook, Step Up, Oceans Eleven, The Matrix, I am Sam, Harry Potter. The Phantom of the Opera. I like lots of movies, but don't remember the titles.

Anything Alternative/Rock, Classical, and Pop.
James Blunt, Coldplay, Amber Pacific, Nickleback, Hedley, Avril Lavigne, + 44, Angels and Airwaves, Panic at the Disco, Fallout Boy, The Killers, Evanescence, Blink 182, The Fray, Snow Patrol.
I do not like Rap or Country Music.

I haven't read a great book in a long time, but really enjoyed The Catcher and the Rye
- I also like reading Books about Anxiety and Depression.
- Currently, Reading the Celestine Prophecy.

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27/F, I've had Social Anxiety and depression for the past 9 years. I'm not on any meds, but use exercise as a way of coping with things.

As far as my anxiety goes it affects me alot. I'm always afraid that people are staring and judging me negatively. I don't like being in large crowds. I don't like going to the mall. I try to avoid being around people at all, really. I don't like answering the phone or calling people or answering the door, Interacting with clerks or cashiers at banks, grocery stores or gas stations.

I don't like loud music. I have found that I have a heightened sensitivity to noise and movement. I am very aware of what's going on around me. Too aware, sometimes I find.

I usually avoid social events (Shags or Socials) I avoid get togethers with the family and would rather talk in a small group. I don't like being the centre of attention. I'm not really sure what to say when talking.

It has affected me as far as my job goes since I believe that I would be doing so much more with my life right now. I have trouble getting and keeping a job. Sometimes, I think about going on disability. I know it seems like a cop out, but working just makes my anxiety worse and I'm always afraid of being fired.

The main thing that I hate about anxiety is that I really wish that I had friends. It's that thing that your afraid to be around them but you really wish that they were a part of your life.

I'm jealous of other people's successes and there ability to get along in life so easily. (Ability to work, go to school, to form relationships, have there own hobbies. (I don't know who I am)

I do plan to go back to school but believe that it will be difficult for me. Being around people 12-38 makes my anxiety bad.

I am very hypersensitive to criticism, and harshly critical of myself. I never feel like I do a good job with anything. I hate getting pics taken and avoid looking in the mirror. I don't like my clothes. But I'm quite clueless to what would look good on me. I never really have.

I have found that in the past year, I have been able to communicate more openly with my family and I know that they will still come around since people seem to need me alot.

One day I hope to find "the one", but if I don't I'll be ok with that, too. I do not ever want to have kids due to my anxiety and depression.

Sleeping in, listening to music, popping microwave popcorn, Granny Smith Apples and Almonds, Vanilla Ice Cream, Smirnoff Ice, Carrots, watching Conan O'Brien, star gazing, going to the gym, going for meaningless drives, the smell of vanillla or pumpkin candles, watching the leaves fall off the trees and noticing the beauty of nature, being outdoors, watching skateboarding, snowboarding or BMX biking, Mountain Biking and Motocross on tv, watching ER and The OC, Grey's Anatomy and Gilmore Girls, 7th Heaven and Las Vegas. Board Games, I like Nerds and Geeks (Glasses, sideburns, facial hair or clean shaven and prefer to have them in my life, Non-smokers (due to smoke allergies), Cuddling, Daisies, Going to plays, going to see live bands, bowling, A Hockey Game, Listening to Classical Music at the Symphony, Believing that there is a higher power watching over me and taking care of me. (You don't have to believe in this, but let me believe), Patient people, Random acts of kindness, Caring about the Environment, Recycling, Hybrids

having no friends, feeling invisible, Narcisstic or Superficial people, Drivers who follow too close (the biggest pet peeve), Wrestling or UFC, Family Guy (only cause it reminds me of the ex), Boys who break your heart, Loud and obnoxious people, people who are blunt and not considerate of people's feelings, partying and drinking, I feel like I'm too serious much of the time, I need to change this. I need to laugh more, Not knowing how to play poker, Liars, people who cheat and steal.

Walking, Biking,Swimming, The Gym
Would love to try kayaking, snowboarding and Indoor Rock Climbing. I want to try Soccer and tennis, as well. I've never been camping or hiking before. (In a tent, of course)
Golfing - Just for fun, I'm not a serious golfer.
I want to go Ice skating and Tubing this Winter. I enjoy Baking/Cooking and want to meet a guy who can teach me something in the kitchen. :) Pizzas are fun!
I want to learn to play the acoustic guitar. If anyone taught themselves, what program did you use?